Grease

h4ppy 3ast3r! <3
we're going to go eat Denny's. I want something more cultured but my suggestions fall on deaf ears. Oh well. at least my outfit looks awesome.

Whoa Nelly

we got an offer for the house today O_o
the closing date is set at May 27th.
how crazy @_@

Jerky

ahhh I motherfucking hate myself right now and I'm all filled with self-loathing n' stuff. I wanna crawl n' a hole n' die and all the unoriginal shit that comes with being depessed. I also need to shut the hell up.

Drop it like it's hot

man spring break has been a total drag so far. thursday night was really fun...though 2 days later and I've barely heard anything from Shawn, I'm embarassed to admit that it makes me more than just a bit disappointed. I'm so incredibly bored tonight.
annis came over yesterday and we went to shooter's and the thrift store, then today I went to kristen's to watch the ring...tonight I really want to go out but it's getting late and nobody is in contact at the moment...might have to actually stay in and sleep like a good girl x_x

Surviving

I wrote a poem from the point of view of a Holocaust survivor for english class and I just got back from student-parent-teacher conferences and my english teacher told me that my poem was her favorite ( :

.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+
I'm a survivor?

"Happiness is a warm gun"
a tightened noose
a lolling tongue
Take me to a better place
Pull the trigger
Shoot my face
Burn my skin
Gas my lungs
Just kill us all
your will be done

"Happiness is a warm gun"
60 years later,
and I'm still alive
They say I'm so lucky
to have survived
But what about my family?
all of them are dead
The Nazis took their guns
and bashed them in the head
I wish I could join them now
Just float up, up and away
Gonna give the trigger a squeeze
One of these days

"Happiness is a warm gun"
The end is near now
I can't go on
No more fear now
Will soon see
Dad and Mom
Load up the bullets
My body tense and my eyes, crying
Give the trigger a final pull
So much for surviving
.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+.+

copyright Alyssa ( :

Snozberries!?

my gpa as of right now = 3.7
I know I can bring my french grade up to an A, and hopefully my english grade to an A. Golly I hope to get a 4.0 ( :

my english and history grades could be in jeopardy as of wensday though, I have 2 major papers due.

I s'pose I'd better go write them.

Down Poison

Me? Today I feel depressed and sad. Tomorrow the realators are coming over to take pictures of the house to post online and in the house-for-sale booklets. It has to be spick and span for the next however-so-long untill we get an offer and are able to really sell it. Then I will be gone and everyone who hates me will be happy. Everyone who loves me will be sad.

I, I just won't care.

I'm participating

NATIONAL (possible international too?) NO GAS DAY

MAY 19th is now NATIONAL NO GAS DAY!!!!


It has been calaculated that if everyone in this country abstained from the purchase of fuel for just this single day, it would hit the industry with a net loss of over 4.6 Billion Dollars.
MAY 19th SHALL BE THAT DAY!

Please send this message to as many people as you can as quickly as you can to get the word out.

Waiting on this administration to step in and control the prices is not happening. Not only is the price of fuel going up, but at the same time, airlines and trucking companies are forced to raise their prices, which affects the prices on everything that is shipped, like food, medical supplies, clothing, etc.
WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. IF THEY DON'T GET THE MESSAGE AFTER ONE DAY, WE CAN DO IT AGAIN AND AGAIN.

Of course, this doesn't help stop the consumption of gas, which is a real problem, but at least it is a start. Like Buy Nothing Day, it concentrates on what is important, and sends a clear message. Consumption is crippling this nation and suffocating its people, animals, and plants.

But Please Don't Buy Fossil Fuel On May 19th!

Biodiesel Good! Fossil Fuels Bad!

I believed profoundly.

so tonight is Mallory's 16th birthday party. I've been invited to her birthday parties every year since 7th grade. I guess I lost her. I kill them off one by one.

I want to be used and hurt and injured and rejected and violated and then maybe I'll feel better.

omg!

omg!

Hot Chocolate

ok so yesterday didn't work out, I got to go to the Fabric store and the dollar store with Annis but we never made it to the mall. gonna try again today with either Laura and Annis or just mom, either way I hope it works.

notice the new tagboard. it does not quite look the way I want it to, but you can still post, yes? please?

and also, notice the small white cat in the corner of the screen...his name is Neko, if you pet him (click him!) he will follow you, pet him again and he'll go about his business!

Zero...One...Two..Three...

today I shall go shopping with mother to buy new shoes and jeans and pretty things ^_^

Petals wilt in alcohol

I am very, very upset and angry with my parents right now. They are upset with me for getting a "D" progress report in geometry, and they wish to keep me in the house all weekend to clean my room because, apparently, they've decided to put the house up for sale next week. Boy does this make me angry! I'm alright with moving but now that it's speeding towards me and will not stop I'm not as sure that I can handle it than I thought it was. Perhaps I'll find some internet support group for uprooted teenagers with foolish parents?

"I fear change..."

I was hating myself very much today. ugly hair, ugly skin, ugly clothes, ugly ugly ugly. my insides are ugly too. I will bury myself in various activities (schoolwork. knitting. reading. friends.) to try and keep my mind off of how much I've come to hate myself.